MY STORY 

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I started my path, at least the adult version of it, 20 years ago. 

I moved to India for a year to learn the Eastern traditions of meditation and yoga. I qualified in yoga teacher training & yoga therapy. This gave me wisdom for the practices, and grounded the experiences of my youth. I then returned, feeling that my purpose was not in the mountain tops but in the "real" world. My old world. So, I moved to Germany to become a Strategic Consultant working in innovation & transformation. I loved my work immensely. I had big clients, a big team and no boundaries. 

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Then I got sick. Really sick. 

In bed, in pain.

I was sick for three years, fighting for my life.

Then - eight years of healing.  

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I spent many years of trying and testing. SEEKING ANSWERS. Searching for relief. Searching for Truth. 

I had some tools and knowledge from my time in India, and my intuition told me that this was a spiritual emergency. 

 

The Dark Night of the Soul.

(Not that this term really helps at the time!)

Also a night - really? More like an endless chasm.

 

​This was my test of fire. I explored and studied every tradition, practice and medicine I could get my hands on.

Medicines and wisdom from East and West, and everything in between. From a daily dose of four types of antibiotics and multiple rehabilitation clinic stays, to frog poisons, psychedelic plant medicines, silent retreats and Tantric temples.

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I worked with my sexuality, my inner child, and my Ancestors.

My  rage, my grief, my sadness.

I made friends with my crippling pain.

Taught myself to play & create pleasure.

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And I healed myself.

 

I healed from the chronic illness and suffering; from complete burnout - chronic bacteria Infections,

nervous system overload, chronic fatigue syndrome, and chronic pain. 

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It started as a very physical journey - doctors, treatments, and pills. 

But the ultimate turning point came through working with my inner landscape; healing the emotional pieces and reclaiming my spirituality as the core of who I am. I worked with my Shadows, understanding my trauma, my patterns and my conditioning.

This was the first step. 

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Then, through working with my sexuality, and connecting to this Life Force energy, I experienced really big breakthroughs. 

I felt my grief, my anger, and my shame. I really allowed my whole self to be there, and this was exponential in my path. 

This is why I offer Full Permission spaces.

 

My healing marathon showed me my True colours. It revealed to me my everything. 

 

My vulnerability and my immense strength. 

My pain, and also the pleasure.

Awakening me to my Bliss nature.